My baby is hurting!!

At this moment.. If I'm given superpowers.. I choose to have speed, so I could by by your side in a blink of an eye, to hold you, to comfort you, to wipe away your tears. I choose to have healing ability, to be able to mend your heart. I choose to have telekinesis, to be able to make you forget.

Unfortunately... I do not have those powers.

I dreaded this instance from the day you are born, but I do understand this is part and parcel of growing up.. It is something that you will experience in your life, no matter how hard I tried to shield you from it. It is how you take it, how you face it, how you learn from it. Positively or negatively. I believe you are a strong person, you will not let this be a hurdle for you in your studies, in achieving your dreams. I believe your faith is strong, being patient will be rewarding.

Nevertheless, just so you know... I'm crying for you. I wish I could take away the hurt and sadness from you. Just so you know... I'm here for you. Loving you, always and forever.

Listen...

Song when I was in school. Partly related...

Nightwish

Thanks to a great sort-of "friend", I found this group. And I seriously love their songs.

And as for the "friend".. we are still in the process of knowing each other. It will be against all my principles, but B makes me feel .... things that I have not felt for a long, long time. B lets me be me, no cover ups, no acting .. just unspeakable understanding. When asked why me, simple answer was given... FATE. So lets see how far fate will bring us.

Hola!!

Long time since the last I've updated this blog. Honestly, I've so busy with work, I sleep only 2-3 hour a day. Not healthy, I know. A lot has happened during this time. Too much till I don't think I can remember any details. In short:-

1) I missed being with my son.

2) I lost a friend due to a LIE (actually 2nd lie)
3) I gained a friend at work.
4) I gained a friend in life.. though he is expecting to be more than just friends.
5) I reconnected with a girlfriend (I love you to pieces Ida)

6) I got 4 flat for my last sem results and Dean's List (never thought I could make it)
7) I love my new room and housemates (If only I have time to sleep on my bed)
8) I need a holiday .. desperately.
9) I need a spa session .. desperately.
10) I need a hair cut.. not so desperately.
11) I need a hug... but I think my son needs it more now then me.
12) I look forward to the next semester (This time I will not defer) and targetting for another DL

That's it for now. Got to go back to work. Bye all!

Listen...

A beautiful song... very meaningful. Dedicated to me by someone I once hurt and got hurt in return. True the saying.. only those whom you loved have the power to hurt you.

Hazama AF9 - Cinta teragung

Happy Birthday!!

Happy birthday dear.. I love you from the day you were conceived. My love for you grew stronger every second as you grew in my womb. I fell in love with you again when I saw you for the first time. And that love for you gave me strength to endure any hardship that comes to our lives. I pray that Allah s.w.t gives you all the joy and happiness that you deserve and I'm here for you in every step of your life. I love you.. always and forever.

Read with me!

Hola Bloggie!

Since there is a Community Library near my house, I made a point to take my daughter there as often as we can. To get her to be exposed to books and love of reading like me when I was younger. I've always love reading. I do not have any specific author or genre that I'm fond of. I read anything I can get my hands on. Romance, fiction, historical, anything.... As long as I'm reading, I'm happy. It is the only way I can escape from my crazy world.

It has been awhile since I was able to sit back with a book in my hands. Work demands a lot of my time and I'm not the type who is patient enough to just read a page or two at a time. I would want to finish my reading till I usually forget everything else, food, drink, shower etc as I will be in a different world then, world of the writer, viewing from his/her point of view.

I borrowed this book from the library. It's from Jemari Seni Publishing @ www.jemariseni.com. It is a story of friendship from Taiping to Tokyo, based on sincerity and religion. Writer plays with emotions of a young girl by the name of Nurul Akasyah and her best friend Carl Duke Adam. The purity of a friendship, the unspoken words of love and hope, the hurt, the uncertainty and the happiness. All in one.

The writer, Rnysa @ http://rnysa.blogdrive.com, started writing blogs in 2003 and this is her first e-novel. Easy reading. Her friendship theme is no different from other novel in the market but touch of religious views and attributes reminds me that the temporary world we live in can be better if each individual remembers that everything comes from HIM and to HIM we should ask. For HE will not turn away from those who ask. Ainul Mardhiah... would I even dare to dream to become her? The head of all angels in Heaven? Hmmm....