Today is another new day. It has been a while since I wrote some serious stuff here. And so today... I'm sharing with you, what is in my mind...
I haven't slept all night, working on translating a script to be used for voice over dubbing today. As I work through the scenes, there were two scenes that made my tears fall.
1st scene: An ex-husband writing a birthday card to his ex-wife and placing it on a public board where people place cards or notes that couldn't be sent. His words were..
"Young-hee, I'm writing a birthday card I can't send you. Please remember only the happy and good times we had during our 10 years of marriage. Please forget the pain I've inflicted on you. It's true that I loved you and I'm being sincere when I say this. Please be happy. I think I can finally breathe if you're happy. On your birthday, May 28, 2009, Chul-soo."
Well you may think what so great/sad about these words..
I am in that lady's position. I was hurt and my marriage collapsed just after our 8th anniversary, on the 10th year since we've known each other. I've just had my birthday recently. And every year, even how rocky our relationship were... he never fails to wish me a happy birthday.. he remembered, to me that is what mattered most. And for those small things he did, I loved him ever so dearly. I would thought that after whatever happened between us, that he would forget but no. He set aside his ego and sent me a birthday text at 1201am on my birthday followed by a short message on my FB. Honestly I was touched, I cried but I couldn't make myself to forgive him, for what he has done.
2nd scene: The lady & a friend who had fell in love with her without her knowing was at a beach, holding a bottle ... like the story 'Message in a bottle' and they wrote a note, place it in the bottle, then throw it away, as though throwing all their problems away. And he said...
"Now your mission is to write everything you want to say and couldn't say to your husband on here. Then throw it into the ocean. As of tonight, you're getting rid all your troubles and start your life fresh. You're going to put the past behind you and plan for a bright future."
Easier said than done, but I did just that. Only I didn't have the chance to throw a message out to the sea. I just threw the imaginary letter out of my mind. With the help of a friend, who has been loving me since I was 16 and had never stop loving me till now, I planed a new life, a better life. Although, I might not be able to return the love this friend who selfishly and so thoughtlessly have for me, he has been the pillar of my strength for me to go through this hurt I'm having.
I thank Allah s.w.t for blessing me with my two most precious babies for whom I'm making these changes for, a great weirdo haphazard family who have been patience with all my ups & downs, and now a friend, who knows me better than I know myself. Thank you all for being there for me. I love all of you... always & forever.
