Hello Bloggers...
I guessed my last post had an effect on someone who is close to me and guessed it hurt him instead. He asked me a question on what does he mean to me. I couldn't find the right words to explain this to him. In response to my silence, he hung up. You might be wondering why I kept my silence. Simple, I'm not ready to respond to that question at the moment.
I simply cannot answer. Under these circumstances, I simply cannot answer. What answer will there be? Superficial? Hurtful? Honest? I have said something on previous occasions but maybe it wasn't clear to him. Maybe if he reflect back on our relationship, he would understand why I cannot answer.
To you, as I know you would be reading this. In your own words to me before this, let time run its course, InsyaAllah. Loving someone does not mean you have to have him or her, they are not yours to keep. Be content to love, if only from afar...
My Love...
Hello Bloggie,
Happy "supposed-to-be" Anniversary for me. Should have been 9 years today. Wished it could have been 9 wonderful years. But the journey had been too rocky for me to withstand. I couldn't bear it any longer, but my heart is filled with sorrow. Still hurts so much. How I wished it had never happened. But it did. And I could not forgive myself for letting it happen. I could not forgive myself for letting go.
Nevertheless, I wish all the happiness in the world for him. I'll remember this date for the rest of my life. I thank Allah s.w.t for giving me a chance to be with him, if only just for a little while. And if Allah s.w.t wills us to cross our path again someday... Kun Fayakun. I'll be right here waiting.
Now listening to...
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundlyBut I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
*You know who you are ....*
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