A breather...

Hello you... welcome back to this blog. I know its been a while since the last entry, some of you followers might be wondering why.

Well, work caught up with me. Upon receiving the new schedule, I saw that the series I was working on no longer in it for the whole month. In the same month, its translation work was taken away and then this. No VO. Hmmm... Luckily I still have the other VO job. However, I still panicked.

After I've approached and committed 2 episodes a week to the other company, my fickle-minded so called boss called me. She started yapping away about me went above her by approaching the other company for work. Nowadays, I learn to keep my mouth shut whenever she starts to grumble. Then almost 15 minutes of non stop yapping, she finally asked be to come to the office to collect materials needed for the work. Dateline for each of them is one after another. Some two in the same day.

Moreover, I need to catch up with my studies. Almost 2 weeks gone since the last class and I haven't touched any of the books nor have I started on my assignment. My earlier resolution for this semester went down the drain. I couldn't spare the 2 hours for studying a day as promised.

The only break I had last week was going to watch a play written by my elder brother at KLPac last Saturday. A 10-minute play, titled "I'm not Julia Roberts", a part of Short + Sweet Malaysia 2011. Nicely written play about problems in letting go of the past. Went there with my sister and we enjoyed the whole show immensely. Credit also goes to 2 other plays which caught my attention namely Because The World Needs Unicorns and Who Moved My Doughnut? I hope they get to go on the finals because they are really good. Memorable characters in these two plays are the Unicorn and Doughnut.

So now I have to reschedule my life again. Holidays are coming and I need to do some catching up in my studies as there will be a class this weekend and get myself ahead in work. Other stuff will have to wait. But priority still commands my time. And tonight the priority is my daughter's upcoming performance on Children's Day celebration at her school this Friday. Her teacher had decided that all girls will be wearing purple dresses. Mind you, my daughter is not the dress wearing type so I had to scout over a few places trying to find a purple dress. And as I thought, it was not easy to find a long purple dress her size. So I decided to make one by using an adult long skirt, beaded bra strap, a short cardigan and beaded necklace. I still have to find a purple colored tudung for her. Lucky for me, she is happy with the dress and excited about the upcoming performance. And I wouldn't miss it for anything in the world.

That's it for tonight. Till we meet again. Adios amigos!




Hate & Regrets


ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Please LOVE.. stay away from me. I don't want anything to do with you!! Get out of my mind! Get out of my life! I regret the day I set my eyes on you! I regret answering to your sms! I regret opening my heart for someone like you!

1) I hate people who takes advantage!
2) I hate people who gives out lame excuses!
3) I hate my own stupidity!
4) I hate being so gullible!
5) I hate trusting people!
6) I hate being hurt!
7) I hate feeling the pain!
8) I hate the fact that I can't forget the things that I love about you!
9) I hate this feeling of wanting you in my life!
10) And most of all, I hate you!!

Forget me... Forget you ever met me ... Forget the things I have done for you... Forget the things I have done with you... Forget everything!! Because I can never forget you.

Movie Time!!!

It has been a while since our last movie outing so today I had planned for quality time with my daughter after work. We spend the morning debating which movie to go and watch. She insisted on The Smurf while I would like to see Pierre Andre's new work Al Hijab. 

When we went to the studio, we found out that the technician has no keys so we couldn't get in. After waiting a while, not knowing how long will the waiting time be, I decided for us to go lunch & movies in KLCC, then only come back to work. After all, my daughter has been pestering me to take her to the KLCC bridge. Maybe this is the time. Unfortunately, the bridge was closed for renovations till December 2011.

Went there, looked at the screening schedule, we decided to go for both movies. Back to back. And the Moviemania offer that they have in TGV made it much cheaper. 6 tickets for RM50, that's RM8.33 a piece. The balance of 2 tickets can be redeemed anytime, any movie, any day. I was thinking I can use it for Breaking Dawn in November. We had McD lunch, bought a dinosaur book for my daughter at Kinokuniya (she seems to be so interested with dinos lately) then settle in for our movie marathon.

First we watched Al Hijab. PG 13 movie. A girl sitting beside my daughter was asking her if she is not afraid. My daughter just looked at me with Puss in Boots eyes. The story is about Rafael (Pierre Andre) who is an actor and he doesn't believe in ghosts. He was offered a lead role in a horror movie, excited to carry it but couldn't get the feel for it due to his beliefs. He went to several so called haunted places but did not experience anything. His girlfriend Qiss (Fathia) told her mother about Rafael's plight and the mother explains to him what hijab is. Saying that he would be able to see ghosts if his hijab is opened. He did some research in the internet but did not find much about hijab. He then received an sms asking to come to an old lady's house who apparently would be able to open his hijab for a short period of time. When asked permission to close the hijab back, Rafael refused and told the old lady that he will come back the next morning to close it. She reminded him that she will be the only once who can close it for him as she was holding the key.

For me, the movie was rather slow. Even though the effects seem realistic, I did not get the sense of eeriness like when I watch Ju-On. Just thinking of Ju-On,sent shivers to my spine till today. However, a light moment which made everyone in the theater rolling with laughter is when Rafael's car broke down and he hitched on a truck driven by Bell Ngasari and another person (new actor?) who was acting as Bell's Indonesian employee with Munir (Phyne Ballerz) sleeping between them. My daughter couldn't stop laughing until the next ghost scene.

Then we went on to watch The Smurf. Needless to say, I've watched Smurf as cartoon since I was a little girl. It was nice to see it in movie version. In this movie, the Smurfs were getting ready for Blue Moon Festival when Papa Smurf sees a vision of Smurfs in cages, Clumsy Smurf holding a dragon wand and Gargamel being powerful. While fleeing from Gargamel, after accidently leading him into the village, Clumsy Smurf runs to a forbidden cave. Followed by Papa Smuf, Smurfette, Grouchy, Brainy and Gutsy, they were sucked by a gigantic vortex and ended up in New York City as the vortex closes. But not before sucking in Gargamel and his cat as well. Adventures while trying to find a way to get home, the Smurfs befriended Patrick and Grace and their dog Elway. Fights and trying to escape from Gargamel led to the capture of Papa Smurf. Wanting to use the Smurfs essence to make him stronger, towards the end fails as he always have. It's nice to see them so realistic. Perhaps we will see more of them in the future.

Straight to studio after the movies. Luckily my session was not that long as my daughter had fallen asleep at the sofa. Long day for her as she had Kem Bina Solat in the morning at her school. Anyway, she had fun and looked forward for another Ayun's day as she calls it, a day where my whole attention will be devoted only for her. I enjoyed it very much as well as it's a day for the child in me as well. 

Till next session... 


Now listening to...

One priceless moment V...

Countdown over!!!

Horayy! Flight will be grounded till further notice. I look forward to AidilAdha, when official introduction will be made. Happy? Of course I am. Afraid? Even more. May Allah s.w.t give us his blessings. Give us time to know each other more. Perhaps one day...

Ah, I should not think about that for the moment. As for right now, I still have my plans that I need to see through first before I can think of anything else. Children, work, study, debts... and heart .. all in that order of preference. Baby steps, babe, baby steps.


Now listening to...

One priceless moment IV...

Today is Friday. 7 days left. But today is D-day. Will the flight take off or grounded? By the looks of it, it seems promising. But no hopes there. We'll see.

When I started this blog, I tried to refrain myself from being too personal. As days go by, my entries have become more and more personal. Part of it is because of my English project, part of it comes straight from the heart. Saying is true about when a writer has passion, his writing become passionate. This blog is a mere peek at my life. Not every single action or incident is recorded here. Some people might take it lightheartedly, some might take it seriously and there are certain individuals who will take it the wrong way and act immaturely. I welcome all to read, give constructive criticism to my writing, as writing per se. Not taking the topic of my writing and making a mountain out of a mole hill. Honestly, I'm tired with these kind of people. Immature people. People who think the world of himself. Who thinks the world revolves only around him. People who have the cheek to ask for another chance, but yet doing and saying things that irritates me more.

Yes! I'm talking about you stalker! You know who you are because I know you will be reading this. There are things I wrote here that has nothing to do with you at all. As in Malay (so that you understand clearly) TOLONG JANGAN PERASAN! But you know one thing, I'm glad that you do read my blog in a sense. All the 9 years I knew you, you have never picked up and read anything in English. I do hope that this will improve your English a bit. Try to use context clues in the sentence to find the meaning of a word you are not familiar with, you can use http://sbmb.dbp.gov.my/prpm/ if you still couldn't get the meaning. You might want to use Google translate, but I seriously tell you, the translation is only 70% right and the other 30% will make the whole actual meaning of the sentence into something else. Believe me, I've tried using it myself. So if that is what you have been doing, I would understand why you are always getting the wrong idea. So stop it. My mother have given you an expensive dictionary on your birthday before. Use it. It is not for display.

And for the rest of my beloved readers, feel free to continue and enjoy the antics of this budding writer. One day, I will turn and expand this blog into a collection of short stories and publish it. One day... one fine day. Till then...

One priceless moment III...

8 days left. But then, he is going for an interview later. Here, in K.L.Will he stay? Very unlikely. I'll just keep counting the days and see what happens then.

I am so angry with myself. In the ways of the heart, I've never learnt from my mistakes. Because I listen to my heart. And when you have a lonely heart, it can be quite irrational. In this case, major irrational!

Nevertheless, people say "Love someone who loves you, not someone whom you love". I don't know.

If a wife cries...

Read a post on FB today by Che Siti Hanieyfah. It was exactly what happened to me 2 years back. When someone who matters most to me broke my heart. And the stupid fool of me begging to be given another chance. Unfortunately, the chance given was not sincere. He was just testing my patience. And sure enough, I broke down after a year. FYI, he did not hold my hand at all. Sorry, I am not going to change it to English as it is best to be read as it is. But in any case, should anyone wants to read the English version, let me know.


“Hargai lah ia sebelum terlewat…”

Jika seorang isteri menangis dihadapanmu, itu bererti dia tidak dapat menahannya lagi…

Jika kau memegang tangannya saat dia menangis, dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu..

Jika kau membiarkannya pergi, dia tidak akan kembali menjadi dirinya yang dulu, selamanya!

Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, kecuali didepan orang yang sangat dia sayangi, dia akan menjadi lemah!

Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu.

Dia akan menurunkan rasa EGOnya.

Wahai suami2,

jika seorang isteri pernah menangis keranamu, tolong pegang tangannya dengan penuh pengertian.

Kerana dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu disaat kau terpuruk terlalu dalam …

Wahai suami2, jika seorang isteri menangis keranamu, tolong jangan menyia-nyiakannya. Mungkin, kerana keputusanmu, kau merosakkan kehidupannya.

Saat dia menangis didepanmu, saat dia menangis keranamu. Lihatlah jauh kedalam matanya. Dapatkah kau lihat dan kau rasakan SAKIT yang dirasakannya keranamu ?

Apakah keistimewaan perempuan ini ? ”

Dibalik KELEMBUTANYA dia memiliki kekuatan yang begitu dahsyat..

TUTUR katanya merupakan KEBENARAN..

SENYUMAN’nya adalah SEMANGAT bagi orang yang dicintainya. .

PELUKAN & CIUMAN’nya bisa memberi KEHANGATAN bagi anak2nya..

Dia TERSENYUM bila melihat temannya tertawa..

Dia TERHARU & Dia MENANGIS bila melihat KESENGSARAAN pd org2 yg dikasihinya. ..

Dia mampu TERSENYUM dibalik KESEDIHAN’nya. .

Dia sangat GEMBIRA melihat KELAHIRAN..

Dia begitu sedih melihat KEMATIAN..

TITISAN air matanya bisa membawa PERDAMAIAN.

Tapi dia sering dilupakan oleh SUAMI...
Bahawa “Betapa BERHARGAnya dia”…

One priceless moment III

Salam Bloggers,

9 days left. I'm mentally tired. But I've found some answers nonetheless. And those answers are not favorable. I have to accept the fact that he is leaving. And make the most of what time that we had left. Long distance relationship... I have never tried that. But anyway, I have never placed any hopes in the first place. I know who I am... Loving someone means letting go. If it is meant to be, its meant to be. And I have to let go. And move on.

One priceless moment II...

10 more days. 10 more days before I will lose him.. maybe forever. I felt happy today as he spend almost the whole day with me.. apart from the time I'm in the studio. Breakfast, lunch and dinner. I took him to my aunt place in Rawang for breakfast. I guessed they did not expected it would be him and not B. Not much comment from my aunt, but she reminded me to find someone who would be able to take care of me and not vice versa. Still a lot I have to learn about him.. and so little time. He had left his home town for about 10 years now, and looking forward to go back more due to his aging parents. I tried giving him the idea of staying. And that we could work things out. He needs to discuss it with his parents. I don't know... we'll see.

One priceless moment...

What am I doing?? Falling for someone who will be gone from my life in 11 days? Why?? Why me? Why now? I can't think straight.  Feelings? Is there any feelings? Love? What is love? Must there be love? But he will be gone from my life.. What would I expect? He is not going to stay. Why would I think he will stay? What have I done?? Allah, please have mercy on me. Don't test me this way. Take my life. But don't test me this way. I'm not that strong to endure this. Ya Allah, please help me. Please help me...